LASIK

disebabkn ko, hidup aku dh merana bertahun2.
disebabkn ko juga, aku jdi pendendam yg tegar.
disebabkn ko, aku juga menjadi bukan diri sdri.
disebabkn ko, aku juga jadi biadap.
disebabkn ko, aku menjadi terlalu evil enough.

this is not me ok!
apa lgi ko nak ye?
aku really give all a damn after that.
aku xde la nak igt apa2.
that why la aku xnk balik langkawi.
bila nampak depan mata,
 hbis smua perbuatan, cacian terngiang2 di telinga.

why have you appear in front of me?
why oh why oh why??
penat la rsa nie.
nak hilangkn rsa benci, menyampah, geram.
bertahun2 la.
hmmmm.

i hope someone will help me.
i have tried many things.
but i don't know.

what should i do? 

Sparkle

sometime i been thinking, i make the right decisions or not? it's OK to be silent and follow all the directions given? or i make the WRONG decisions? it's ok to silent all the wrong actions done to you? what should i do?

It's less important to have unanimity than it is to be making the right decisions and doing the right thing, even though at the outset it may seem lonesome.

Thesaurus

The happiest people are those who think the most interesting thoughts. Those who decide to use leisure as a means of mental development, who love good music, good books, good pictures, good company, good conversation, are the happiest people in the world. And they are not only happy in themselves, they are the cause of happiness in others.

*suka betul berposing (gmbar lma la nie)

XL

Dear blog,

dh lma kn saya x menulis kt sini.. hihi.. well, so miss to write here..
well, sibuk dgn keje2 asgmt yg x bhenti2..
xde msa utk diri sdri... msa utk mnikmati hari2 yg indah..
bsyukur dpt hidup ketika saat ini....
wlpn byk msalah, byk hal yg perlu diselesaikn..
tpi msti kuat utk tempuhi nya...

Miss H,
i miss u so much.... hey, awak tggu saya balik nnti ye... kita keluar ye..
saya dh lma x lepak ngan awak..
no bowling, no karaoke, no watching movie..
teringin but tpi fkir juga masa...
 mgkin Allah x bg kelapangan dri segi itu utk elekkan apa yg x ptut..

The Truth

Mr. A & Miss H said that bercinta selepas kahwin is more good & diredhai Allah..

Mereka pernah merasa nikmat bercinta b4 this.. & said like that...
i knew that x baik utk bercinta if bkn utk menuju ke gerbang perkahwinan...

hope will get someone better & can guide me to be a better person... insyallah.. Amin...

wishing to have Umrah again... miss the Makkah & Madinah.. at there, you don't have anything to think other than beribadat only...

want to change my lifestyle.. a little bit in a step... one step at a time ...

Chocolate Lip Butter

after having some lip dryness, having some of lip balm i have already.. decided to collect many flavour of Body Shop lip balm & butter as my new collection at my home.. after love to collect perfume.. hahahahahah...

if u want to marry me, you have always buy me Body Shop products.. as hantaran... monthly gifts.. (^-^)

better than i know myself...

i'm really thought that it just my thoughts lately..
but....
it felt so hard & sad to go through this..
well, i felt so far from you..
it seem so awkward to be seeing u again...
i felt that to all people around me...
we always having conversations everytime & everything...
but now....
it felt so different.....

i will be strong enough to go through my life which become so tough...
i always miss u...

Wishlist

dear my diary.. hihi..
these are the list of what i wants for my life. hope i can try achieve that. Insya-Allah. =)


SHORT TERM

1. Purse. (Torn.not find d one which i like yet)
2. Beg for lecture time next year. (Mine was torn before.want RED colour.)
3. News board from IKEA. too long want it.

LONG TERM

1. Face treatment - on going (started on DEC 2011)
2. Lose weight - this one are being continuously. =P
3. Hybrid car - when started working dear Lisa.
4. New HP - wishing of the Samsung Galaxy S II ( this year please!!)
5. Save money for vacation.
6. KUTU again.

it will be continued to be listed. OK. ^_^

What I want to do this year?

10 Ways to Build Your Confidence This Year  --> Credit to http://www.ehow.com


Taking on a new year can be daunting. We've promised ourselves that we will lose weight, spend less or exercise more, but we're fighting an uphill battle if we don't first have confidence in ourselves. Take steps to boost your confidence, and you'll remain strong all year long.

Look Around

Think about what's in your control and what's not, and journal about it. Focus on the things you have power to change. Evaluate your environment, your relationships and your workspace to understand what's bringing you down, and focus on the things you can actively change. If it's out of your reach, acknowledge it. Write it down and move along, choosing instead to focus your energy elsewhere.

• i boleh control myself je.. boleh wat nie.. insyallah... wlpn environment quite sophisticated, i will ty my best k.. 
• kena da matlamat jangka pjg la pasni... tuk sem 4 & sterusnya... 

Escape Negativity

If there are people or situations that are bringing you down, reevaluate their place in your schedule and in your life in general. Gravitate toward friends and activities that are positive influences.

• owg disekeliling slalu men'saiko' aku wlpn diaowg x wat pape pn.. always i rsa demotivted. tried to avoid this feeling. this year, follow this OK!!

Don't Take It Personally

Remember, you can only do your best. When bad things happen, don't beat yourself up. Instead, take a deep breath and figure out what your next steps will be.

• this one I should done from dlu2 lgi kn.,.. huhu.. slalu salahkn diri sdri like KES tue... 

Get Some Exercise

Working out helps release the tension that builds up in your body when you're stressed. A good workout can help you feel relaxed and refreshed, while simultaneously boosting your endorphins and your confidence.

• cuti sem nie, akn tlaksana k.. kt sini, sbuk bebenor la.. x sempat wlpn da tasik UTP yg gojes tue...

Set a Date

Plan time with friends and family. Having fun with the people you love is a great way to boost self-esteem, and planning ahead gives you something to look forward to on tough days.

• akn tlaksana slepas exam selasa nie.. looking fwd for that,.. yahoo.. x sabr nk pegi bjln2.. 

Strip Away Stress

Take a look at the sources of stress in your life. Are you working too much? Have you taken on too many activities? Rather than letting your routines overwhelm you, look for ways to balance your time and include activities that will replenish and refresh you.

• mmg sgt2 perlu BUANG... mmg byk kje, stress GILER... kena wat time management yg btul la.. 

Learn Something New

Take up a new hobby. Novelty is good for the brain and for the soul. In addition to giving you a fresh perspective, it will help you boost your sense of achievement and add to your feelings of self-worth.

• bca novel, x nk la.. amek msa lam gler la.. apa yg nk ye? kena explore la.. hahhaha..... 

Recognize Success

Set reasonable goals. By making manageable benchmarks, you build confidence in yourself as you reach them. When you meet your goals, take a minute to acknowledge what you've accomplished. By recognizing your own success, you're reinforcing positive behavior.

• GOAL - flying colour in exam + success in life, getting BF.. haha.. many more... kena letak benchmark for study.. x tkejar la kn.. =)

Phone a Friend

Call up a friend you haven't spoken to in a while. Getting caught up is a great way to get a fresh perspective, and reinvesting in a relationship will give you a renewed sense of community and companionship. Seeing yourself as part of a whole will help you gain confidence and reinforce your confidence in everything you have to offer.

• always done that msa ngah tension.. haha.. wlpn diaowg x slalu kol, tpi saya selalu wat la.. just dgr suara diaowg, akn tlenyap sbentar msalah2, tension... 

Feed Your Mind

Surround yourself with music, books and programs that boost your mood. Avoid songs, movies or shows that make you feel down. Instead spend your time indulging in the art that really fulfills you.

• wondering why time SEDEY msti nk bukak lagu sedey ye? hahah.. x ptut kn.. kena lagu yg boleh naikkn semangat like STAND UP.. 

SEKIAN.... 

life

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

hit the lights

hopefully u will happy with ur life..
after all we have been through..
thanks so much for what have u done..

letih nyer...

pd jam 4am... siap sudah eco... waaaaa, freaking enough... menakutkn la nk wat & present pg nnti.. hope ok la...

after a while

dear sunshine.. it been a while i haven't update my blog...
this is because i felt like boring to update my blog..
i been rehabbed myself for 4 months long...
i thought i can go through this time...
but after u are far away from me.. it felt like my life so sorrow..

hehehe.. sorry dear.. sje je nk wat sedih..
i windu u la...
tggu ye.. i balik hjg mggu nie.. pas konvo k...
i missing all my sidekicks...
i know that i miss them,...
but i haven't an effort to see them...
don't know why...

my life here, as u know....
byk sedih dri happy...
u kn tahu yg i nie klau sedih slalu je wat happy..
but i x sangka last time, i mmg nangis gler2...
dh lma x camtu.. tue mmg reallly2 stress...

project kita camne? matlamat x tcapai2 lgi kn?
bila la nk tcapai kn?
suka kt owg.. but dri jauh je kn...
mmg x bbaloi kn...
for now, just focus on my study only..
mlas nk fkir owg lain..
yg ptg, i have a enjoyful, sweet, nice friend to enjoy sometimes..

u pn sbuk kn.. nk wat camne.... owg keseorangan at last..
hey, belanja i bubble tea tau.. mlas la nk update kt fb..
nnti smua tau lak....
huhuhuhu.... well, c u then...

Please

whatever things happened in my life,
i still love u, u are always in my heart..
although u never thought 'bout me again..
just do not throw away all our memories..
it just too pain to see that reality...
that killing me..
'cuz u just like a cheater, a liar, a killer...

Silver or Gold......

There's no sound when you're gone...
We're not the first ones to be divided...
Won't be the last to be reunited...

one by one the person that i love leaved me..
from year to year... i afraid to admit it..
but it gave a huge missing in my life... 


hope the ones that with me now, didn't like the others..
afraid to walk alone again.. 

hmmmm.....

during my visit at Madinah &  Makkah, i didn't think anything.. not worried anything.. my head felt so light... but now, when i came back here, i felt something messed about.. worried about smth that i didn't know at all... i think they are not remember me at all.. just one.. that always ask me.. my hp is silent at all.. before i go there.. and also after i been back home... really miss some1.. but who's that.. always felt miss some1.. who's that person... i tried to figure out. but i didn't discovered it.. well, God will give sign when the time comes...

never told you

this one for the person for that i knew so much bout her..
this music video is for you....
p/s : heheh.....

i hate this love song.....

No one ever sees, no one feels the pain

 Teadrops in the rain

I wish upon a star, I wonder where you are

 I wish you're coming back to me again

 And everything's the same like it used to be

I see the days go by and still I wonder why

 I wonder why it has to be this way

 Why can't I have you here just like it used to be

I don't know which way to choose

 How can I find a way to go on ?

 I don't know if I can go on without you oh

Even if my heart's still beating just for you

 I really know you are not feeling like I do

 And even if the sun is shining over me

 How come I still freeze ?

 I wish that I could fly, I wonder what you say

 I wish you're flying back to me again

 Hope everything's the same like it used to be

ungu....

setelah hbiskn exam yg ke-2 tuk mggu nie....

ptg nie bru realised... 

saya pkai bju kurung ungu.... 

hehe... mcm rsa g ofis pkai bju warna ungu lak..

miss that times... huhu..

well, 4 papers to go..

chaiyok2!!! jgn mlas lisa..

asyik nk hubernate je... hahhaa...

tggal bpe hari je nk bsama ngan yg lain..

then, tggalkn UiTM yg didiami slma 3 thn....

furustated....

well, lately i felt like demotivated...
i have known this a long time ago..
but tried to be realistic enough...
because of not pretty enough + fat...
i got the low marks...
even i always sat in front the class + also didn't absent from that...
but anyone didn't recognize me all...
have unique name but not unique face + figures...
hahhahahhaaa...... what the life means to me right?
in every gathering that i always go for...
i always be the ones that been ignored almost 80% of the times...
well, that the life nowadays....
so, i like to be at my own world...
with my family + also my friends.....
i tried to be avoid to be involved with people as i don't feel hurt anymore...

sorry a millions time as to the persons that been hurt because of my actions...
i don't means to be like that.... but that's me...
i try to be just what i need.. but i can't...
sorry for that... i will always love you + miss u, frenz....
thanks for being super2 nice frenz to me...

i miss you three gurlz.... al, myra + jirah....
you too... jay... ali... plus yamin.....

p/s : i can be said that i have the inferior complex in me... =)